Memoirs (Personal Thoughts/Experiences)

Journey of Faith/Brevity of life

Each day life comes with surprise packages,

Filled with known and unknown gifts.

At times it makes your heart glad;

Conversely, it saddens you.

Thoughts been caught between two worlds 

Seems to make life an enigma.

Yet, it offers you a choice, 

To just "be" or go beyond "be" with faith;

For our life is not a crystal clear road.

There are times called, "leap of faith"

Contradicted by "motions of life".

Either you choose the journey of faith

Or the brevity of life will catch you by surprise.

(22nd July, 2023)

Encanto

Out of the blue, "encanto" was introduced to me by an acquaintance.

My curiosity led me on a voyage for an adventure.

Only to discover that it was filled with fantasies of miracles, gifts and talents. 

Yet, the end lesson was not the miracle,

It was the "person" as the song echoes,

"But the stars don't shine, they burn

And the constellations shift.

I think it's time you learn;

You're more than just your gift

And I'm sorry I held on too tight

Just so afraid I'd lose you too

The miracle is not some magic 

that you've got

The miracle is you, not some gift, just you

The miracle is you, all of you, all of you"

 (25th July, 2023)

SAIACS Friday Evening

A time when diversity meets unity;

People of different regions, castes and tribes

Coming together like a rainbow;

To represent and be an ambassador 

Of their covenant with God.

Amidst the blue we meet people who are like-minded, some sportive, some epistemophilic and some philonoist.

Yet, at the end they all cohere and uplift one another. 

Yes, this is SAIACS and that's what happens on Friday evening.

(28th July, 2023)

The Crossroad

An impromptu landed me at the Crossroad church today.

Being indolent and fatigued, 

Initially my thoughts tempted me from attending the service.

Yet my chum's zeal ignited a lit to my soul to company; 

This led to a marvelous encounter from the pastor's sermon, an epiphany!

"That Christ loved the church not because it was perfectly lovable.

But to make her holy and glorious for himself.

Likewise, a husband must not look for a perfect wife to love,

But develop her like Christ for himself."

(Ephesians 5:25-33) 

(30th July, 2023)

The conflict

What a misery to find your soul in conflict with your flesh and spirit.

When one says yes, the other says no;

When the other says yes, it's a no from the other.

But wait a minute, is it not the Holy Spirit our helper? How can help come when there is no conflict?

How can he comfort you when you are not in an uncomfort zone?

Is it not political jargon like peace or justice used when there is a conflict?

Be assured that in your conflict, the Holy Spirit wills to bring peace.

You need to only rely on him.

(15th August, 2023)

Money

It is wrong when you do not pray for people who send bulks of money

that flow in like rivers for your studies.

You deceit yourself when you are not grateful or remember them.

You are wasting their money when you do not fulfill your responsibilities.

When you do not develop your spiritual life, you are not living the purpose of your life.

And their investments for you to serve the Lord is in vain. 

Remember that nothing is too small to be grateful for and giving your best.

Father's Love

As time goes farther,

Your love grows deeper.

Never did I encapsulate all your love in the first place, 

But now, as time filters the memories, 

And your love explodes deep within me,

It shakes my whole being to only give in.

Indeed, how strong and deep is the love of missing someone.

It cannot be fully known and understood, Only time reveals. 

Miss you dad, yet anticipating to see you on that glorious day.

" (20th August, 2023)

Being Wise

We often forget that as adults 

We need the faith of the children.

Imagine the Pharisees and Saduceess listening to Jesus with the faith of children.

All their theologies and critical mindset would have been reformed and refined.

They were smart, but lacked wisdom.

Don't let your smartness fool you,

For being smart is loud, but wisdom is quiet.

Choose wisely as you live this gift of life.

Perplex

Life at times throws you with subtlety,

Perplex as the word is, so is the person.

Born to fulfill a task, yet the process twists you.

Makes you lost in an unknown world,

As you struggle to find yourself.

Exhilarated thoughts but exhausted deep within.

Identity doesn't seem to find you, 

It's only your imagery.

Yet, holding on to the tassel of life, 

Hoping to move on again

3:20Am, 3rd Sep. 2023

At the edge of my bed stood a white shabby lady; shaking with the beat of the rain drops. 

Little hunch with obscure face,

Holding a white rolled and folded chart-paper to pass it to me.

Bewildered as my eyes and consciousness collided to make sense gazing at her.

I tried to stand up, but my body was glued to my bed.

Only two things came to my mind; the name "JESUS" and "Praise the Lord."

Did my best to say it outloud, yet the voice was only louder on the inside.

Later, as I intently looked at her, she became so ugly and unkempt, and her eyes began to bulge out as though she was scared, attaching herself at the corner to find comfort.

I was scared and frightened to my bone in the first place; yet boldness like never before overwhelmed me in the next moment.

"Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me, your rod and your staff, they comfort me"

Only Him

I've noticed over and over again 

That when life does not favor us,

The only place we run to is God.

The desires of the heart,

The thoughts of the mind

And the longings of the soul

Are found only in Him.

Yes, only Him!

(11th October, 2023)

_Vizo Seyie